If you would like to publish your
story or experiences about being an avoidant person suffering with social
anxieties, Click here.
** Click Here to Read More
Personal Stories **
Name: Person 7
State: Canada
Date: Tuesday September 04, 2007
Time: 08:52:29 PM -0500
Story:
I'm a 25 year old woman from Ontario, Canada. I stumbled on this website
while browsing through information about anxiety. I found a definition of
APD and found that it perfectly fit my description. I hate being in public.
I hate taking the bus. I hate going to work and having to deal with so many
people. What makes it harder is the fact that I work in a call center
environment so it's very hard for me to deal with people everyday. I wasn't
always like this although now that I think about it, I did show signs of it.
I used to go out with my friends in high school but was always worried about
what people thought of me. I then lived overseas by myself and found it
harder and harder to talk to people. I just wasn't comfortable. When I got
back to Canada, everything went back to what it was until I started going to
school. I hated having to speak in public for presentations. I didn't really
want to talk to anybody. I met my best friend then and she is the only one I
can talk to now because she is the only one who understands me. I find
small things very hard for me to do. I hate being in crowded areas. I feel
like everyone's eyes are on me, judging me or people are laughing at me. I
don't like going to parties. If I do go because I'm forced to, I sit in
quiet and just stare at people but I eventually leave. I don't like looking
people in the eyes because I always feel like their judging me when they
look at me. I despise myself for being like this. I just wish I could live
in a field somewhere away from people so that I wouldn't have to deal with
this.
My mother says that it's my fault because I don't like people. That's not
the case. I'm a very nice person but I just cannot deal with people because
I always worry they don't like me or things like that. I was depressed for a
long time and it never really went away. I was even in the hospital and
thought everything would be okay after this. But now at 25, I just feel like
it's getting worse and worse. I don't really know if it will ever be better.
Next Story
**
Click Here to Read
More Personal Stories **
|